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Upon the Edge
When you looked at me
with pain and anger
I knew it was over
I knew that this time was gone
Your precious angel
Fallen into dirt and grime
Lost in a sea of your guilt
I know I was wrong
But you still made me suffer
With nothing but cobwebs left
I try to regain myself
I cry tears of blood and fear
As the bruises are out and in
You do not know this little girl
I cannot let you think so
I will not die in vain
You still hear my words
Forever echoing inside that void
You like to call a heart
You broke me and I slowly die
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Whole Again
Chapter Five: Whole Again
Justin debated briefly about whether or not to follow her before letting the instinctive nature inside take over. He ran as fast as his legs could go to the point where is muscles began to tense and seize up on him. He refused to stop. He had to get to her. He knew he had no other option. If he didn't, he would lose what he had just now found forever.
Celeste was already deep into the wood that surrounded the lake when she heard him. He was calling for her. He was searching for her. She felt like a rat trapped in a maze with no cheese to guide her to the exit. She had decided that running was futile and hid in a nearby brush instead.
Justin was visible to her now, with his shock-blonde hair reflecting the little bit of sunlight that managed to fight its way through the trees. She slumped low to the ground as he spun in circles calling her name. He finally sighed and sat on a rotten tree stump. He looked disappointed as pulled out a cigarette and lit it.
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Literature
Flames
Chapter Four: Flames
"Celeste?"
Her body lay curled at the base of the granite stone. Dawn was just beginning when the familiar voice had awaken her.
"Kevin??"
Tears welled up in her eyes as she saw the man in front of her. He was as handsome as ever. He was so real that when Celeste reached out, she could feel him. He smelled of lilacs and carnations. Like the flowers he gave her on her last birthday.
"Celeste, I love you. I am waiting for you. Come to me when you are old, not before."
"No, I must be with you! I must die for your memory!"
"If you died, there would be no memory left. Now go, find him."
"Who? Kevin?! KEVIN?!!"
She was choking on her tears. He was gone. In the midst of the morning fog, he had appeared and then vanished. She held her knees to her chest and cried. She cried for Kevin. For love and fate and destiny. For pasts and futures. For lost hopes and forgotten dreams. She cried for her pain.
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She couldn't go home. There was nothing for her there anymore. Sh
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Literature
The Sacrifice
Chapter Three: The Sacrifice
Justin stood there, as if waiting for Aaron to challenge him. He knew that Aaron had no more bullets in the gun but he was still a possible threat. Justin couldn't quite understand this change that was occurring inside of him but it was slowly growing and developing into a vile form of loathing towards his friend. His main concern at the moment though was Celeste's safety.
"What are you gonna do man, kill her now?"
Aaron focused on Celeste noting that her black hair was dirty and unkempt. He thought she was a whore. When he first saw her, he thought the same thing. To him, she was just some used up nasty whore from in the gutters somewhere unmentionable.
"She knows too much. You wanna go to jail? I sure as hell don't. Now, get the fuck out of here and let me take care of the bitch."
Justin brought his arms down to his sides and clenched his fists until his knuckles were white. He stared at Aaron as his face hardened.
"Quit tryin' to be the hero! She'
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Literature
The Lake
The Lake
Staring at the vast waters
Searching for a reason why
Reaching past my vain emotions
Opening my heart to die
And now the seasons change
But you remain the same
Awkward secrets glance
Ending our romance
Sometimes I often wonder now
How we came to be apart
And why I never noticed you
Before I killed your heart
And now the seasons change
But you remain the same
Vengeful voices call
Through the mental wall
You meant so much to me
The pain inside me grows
I never told you I hate you
But now everyone knows
And now the seasons change
But you remain the same
Deep within the ground
I lost what I had found
Speculations wander through me
At why I confused myself again
Looking out unto the waters
My regrets fade with the rain
And now the seasons change
But you remain the same
I sit here at the lakeside
Waiting for the invisible tide
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Literature
Unexplained Emotions
Chapter Two: Unexplained Emotions
Justin felt like his legs were broken as he tried to turn and run away. Fear prevented him from doing much of anything. Aaron just stood there, staring downwards at the cards in Celeste's hand. He did not know how to respond. He cracked his neck on both sides before clearing his throat.
"Now, Celeste, what exactly are you doing here?"
She grimaced at the tone Aaron had. It was as if she had all of a sudden turned into a delicate woman going through a horrible time and begging for consolation.
"The Lovers. Kevin. Myself."
They were silent. The teens did not know there was anything between Kevin and anyone else, let alone someone a few years younger.
"You were not told by Kevin. I was the one he dreamed of being with. I was the one he spent his darkened hours desiring."
"I didn't… we didn't know, Cel! Honest! Shit, I knew something bad was going to happen… today… FUCK!"
Aaron walked off the patio as Celeste cocked her head and looked at Justin.
"I
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Literature
The Lovers and Death
Chapter One: The Lovers & Death
She stood in the sunlight looking down at her lover's grave. She kept thinking that it had to be some form of a nightmarish dream. But she knew better. This was her reality. And there wasn't anything she could do to change that fact.
She called upon her sisters and brothers, people that were not friends but always there like family. She begged them to make it different. She pleaded with them for a change. They all confessed that the power they held within would not be able to change what true love had twisted fate into doing. She did not understand but in her shattered heart, she knew they were right.
She wept at his final resting place for several days before finally moving. It was night when she stood and walked slowly away. Remnants of tears stained her pale face. She knew what had to be done.
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It was exactly one week since Justin and Aaron had killed their best friend. They both were haunted by his voice and images around every corner. They k
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Literature
I Stand Here
I Stand Here
I feel so helpless
So ugly inside
Everyone's wasted
No where to hide
Empty and broken
Distorted back views
I feel so tainted
So confused
But I stand here
Hoping for something
To come and change me
To make me want to live
But I wait here
For you to save me
From this false world
From the walls closing in
I feel so vacant
Insanely oblique
Interchanging veins
I am so weak
Torn apart dream
Insolent rage
Let me out of
This emotional cage
But I stand here
Hoping for something
To come and change me
To make me want to live
But I wait here
For you to save me
From this false world
From the walls closing in
I stand here…
I stand right here…
I stand here…
I am standing right here!
But I stand here
Hoping for something
To come and change me
To make me want to live
But I wait here
For you to save me
From this false world
From the walls closing in
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Shhh
Shhhh.
Shhhh. He sleeps now. I creep around the room, careful not to make any noise. I enjoy the sound of his breathing. I sit and watch him on the other end of the room. I think about our past. The way we used to be. I miss him for that. So sweet and romantic. Why did he change? But all people do. I do not know what I would do tonight without him here. He makes it all so much easier. I feel safe and loved. But am I really? I doubt him and myself. I linger in pessimistic opinions. But he sleeps so peacefully now. I want to yell at him for all that he has done wrong. I want to hurt him the way he did me. But I cannot. I feel helpless. Or is it hopeless? Forget it all, I keep telling myself. It is not worth the emotional sting. But I still love him. And it kills me inside to know. I wonder what-ifs and shake my head in frustration. No. It is how it is for a reason. I loathe him. He is inconsiderate and conceited. But he sleeps so sweetly now. I cannot bare to tell him what is in m
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Literature
Lovers Death
Lover's Death
Slowly bleeding
Constant pain
Mind clouding
Going insane
Empty heartbeats
Nothing stays
This torture
End of days
And now I am screaming
Hoping for you to die
And now I'm laughing
Without you by my side
And you are wicked
Tainting my every breath
And you are slipping
Into the lover's death
Whispering softly
Holding your hand
Wanting peace
In this horrid land
Hopeful tears
Dried on the skin
This is my blood
For your sin
And now I am screaming
Hoping for you to die
And now I'm laughing
Without you by my side
And you are wicked
Tainting my every breath
And you are slipping
Into the lover's death
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Literature
-Regret-
Regret
Standing here by your side
Being the one whom I confide
I regret that fateful day
And how I hurt you that way
Hoping to one day concede
To these haunting memories
As your friend, I stand up tall
But deep inside, I still am small
I am sorry for making you cry
For making you hurt and asking me why
I can't help but feel this is about me
I hope one day you can be free
You are my dearest, closest friend
And you have my respect till the end
Never look back now in pain
I won't hurt you anymore.
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Literature
The Giddy Cassie
The Giddy Cassie
I have been waiting
Since October 8, 2002
For my results on the cancer
I have not known what to do
Each day ticks by
Each night is restless
I have prayed to any god
That I could confess this
I live in fear and dread
Of what may be
And today, in the mail
The results I received
Matthew on the phone
Shock in my heart
The test showed no cancer
In any single part
A blast of relief
A moment of pure elation
Now I am free for anything
(and finally, masturbation)
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Literature
Gently
Gently
Gently, I touch him
So cold and soft
I run my fingertips
Over his pursed lips
So innocent
His steel-coloured eyes
Filled with repressed rage
So insecure
His hands shaking
I am the first
So slowly
Kissing his neck
Whispering my affection
So fragile
Face framed in blonde
Untainted by mankind
So gentle
I feel him
Making him tremble
So sweet
His relaxed kisses
His hands on my back
So special
We intertwine
Life regains meaning
Gently, I touch him
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Dismal moments
Apathetic words
I want to release you
But you know I can't
I want to help you
Find your way home
But what you want
I cannot give
I am just here to guide you
I am just here to hold your hand
I am just here to comfort you
I am just here as a friend
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Opening up the scars
On my arms and wrists
I realize what you did to me
What you made me become
I hate you
For caring abut me
I hate you
For always being there
I hate you
For making it better
I hate you
For loving me always
I let the blood run down
As I enter your room
Smelling your musky odor
Feeling your tainted sheets
I hate you
For lying to me
I hate you
For being so damned calm
I hate you
For making me I am nothing
I hate you
For proving me wrong always
You were my heart's desire
We once shared our dreams
And know I am left hollowed out
With nothing left inside me
I hate you
For leaving me empty
I hate you
For taking it all away
I hate you
For seeing the difference
I hate you
For loving me always
You still tell me
You love me… always
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Cass | CLS
Artist | Literature
United States
Current Residence: Jacksonville, Florida
Favourite genre of music: punk, rock, techno, gothic, ambient, trance, etreal, expierementalhe
Favourite style of art: Dark, Ethereal
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Shell of choice: Turtle
Wallpaper of choice: Death & Dream
Skin of choice: the soft kind
Favourite cartoon character: Pepe & Penelope, GaZ, ZiM, GiR, Brak
Personal Quote: Poke Me There
Interests
This evening was just another normal everyday evening filled with laugh and relaxation. I decided to check my email before going to sleep when I saw a password change request from DA. Now I have not been on here since the end of my relationship with someone (and subsequently terminating a very long friendship as well). I just kind of left everything. MySpace, LiveJournal, DeviantArt. All of them were ended similarly. So needless to say that was a shock to see the email this evening. It was so long ago that I was a part of this, posting my small blurb-like writings and sharing thoughts and support to other aspiring artists & writers. The memories rest in a fog along with much of the past. I have changed, grown, revamped. I am a family woman. A mother. A wife. A daughter. A sister. An aunt. These positions have become my driving force now. I don't know where that Cass from so long ago went. I read these musings, these scribbles and can remember their creations but in a dreamlike haze. Maybe I can create again. Who knows...

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NovaDuck Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2003
:) :hug:
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Stopping By , looking through your gallery now.
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push- Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2003
hii...long time no see... are you around?
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kimvicious Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2003
YEAY!!!!

More wonderful pieces of art by a mnore wonderful artist! Your art is ALWAYS pleasing to look. you must never stop...NEVER!

Cheers to you!~
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spoonfork Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2003
oi i'm no longer voidlove i've evolved into spoonfork be seeing you soon
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9thdoctor Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2003
Hurry on up and update dear. I've missed you, and your poetry.
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khazadum Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2003
OMG yay your back! Much lubs :) (Smile) *hugz*
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phoenixxash Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2003  Hobbyist General Artist
Hugs welcome back
I ve miss you dearly.
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